I’d rather get hurt by carrying out my own stupid actions opposed to getting hurt because someone else messed up my only chance at something if that makes sense. Enough of asking other people for advice. I live my own life. I’ll do what the fuck I want. (With boundaries) As Beyoncé said: “I’m a grown woman. I’ll do whatever I want.”
"There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever…"
I wish I didn’t come from such a broken family.
I wish I knew my grandparents.
I wish my mum was still alive
I wish I had aunties and uncles who actually cared about my existence.
I wish I didn’t have to force myself to be happy everyday.
I wish I didn’t wear my heart on my sleeve.
I’m not a spoon.
I’m a knife.
And I’ll stab you in the eyeball
Sitting in my room in complete darkness trying to learn the lyrics to this song. It sounds like a cry for help lol
"I always fall for the smart ones… ALWAYS."
"Absence really does make the heart grow fonder.."
"Love is a luxury. I guess it’s better to be loved than dead."
"Why can’t I just be happy for once?"
"Trouble is a friend of mine."
"I have really bad trust issues. I think people are either talking about me behind my back or are plotting to hurt me in some way."
I’ve spent most of my life trying to please people forgetting about my own needs.
I need to remember to put myself first sometimes.